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Complications

2012-02-07T21:15:00.004+08:00

God is really amazing. I can feel his presence, trying to make me happy everyday!

HMMM I always tell people this when they ask me for advises : Don't wait too long, putting too much hope on one is not good. But in the end... HA I couldn't do it. Love is strong, really strong. It can blind you from seeing what one does behind your back! Not like backstabbing but more of giving you false, like literally FALSE hopes throughout the year. Really, don't lie to yourself. I have no idea how to explain it clearly but just don't. It's not that I don't want to trust you, it's you who made me doubt in you. Seriously! Think about it. Things you do are very contradicting. I really don't know how to explain why. You disappoint me from time to time, I kept giving you chances. Why haven't you realize your mistakes or whatever? I'm not trying to blame you. It's also my fault. I kept my cool every time but I doubt you noticed it. I cannot find the words to express how I felt, always. So I just randomly say something that isn't what I felt. I don't just accept even if I like or whatever you. I want to see if you will wait ;) that explains all the things I've done. But no.. Proved me wrong, for many times. Besides, it's not the right age to be in a relationship now. But oh well, I shall not bring up anything that is regarding to this to prevent future conflicts. We are already in the worse state. I don't know how to save this friendship. Not even friendship you know. Anyhow, you simply just threw your chance away. I will give up on this love, it's a selfish one.

2012 open house

2012-01-07T22:50:00.000+08:00

Awesome~

New Year Resolutions

2012-01-01T00:00:00.006+08:00

New Year Resolutions

Talking about this, I forgot what was my resolution last year, therefore I did not keep track of it. This year, I will try my best to keep track and watch what I'm gonna do..

1. Trust & Love God more

2. Do my best and concentrate in studies

3. Be a better person

4. Be healthy, control my diet well

5. Not to be rude to anyone

6. Be neat

7. Remake my room

8. Read more books

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY :)

I hate how I get so envious of people who receive so much care, so much love. I don't see myself receiving so much. I get really jealous. Maybe it's because of what I do so people don't love me like how they love someone else? I don't know I just feel so sad so lonely

#BooksOfTheYear

2011-12-30T18:39:00.002+08:00

#BooksOfTheYear

1. The Enchanted Land - Jude Deveraux

2. Tell Me Your Dreams - Sidney Sheldon

3. If Tomorrow Comes - Sidney Sheldon

4. The Pace - Shelena Shorts

5. Texas! Chase - Sandra Brown

6. Beyond Eden - Catherine Coulter

7. The Other Side Of Midnight - Sidney Sheldon

Books are in no order, I love them equally!

I especially love how authors write about love in their books, it really made an impact in my life. I will tend to over think why did they break up, why did they quarrel, why does this story end even when it's not reality. All these thoughts will be in my mind for maybe bout' a week or so. And when I remembered the story once I forgotten it a few months back, I will have the urge to read it again but I asked myself, "isn't it a waste of time?" I just can't get over it. This applies to any dramas that are related to romance. I will imagine myself being the person in the book or drama and everything. And then I'll doubt anything like this would happen because it's way toooooo perfect. I wanna thank all the authors for writing such good books! THANK YOU :)

Thank you

2011-12-27T21:57:00.002+08:00

The last week of holidays is gonna be well spent!! I'm so excited for the upcoming events :)

Saturday 24th Dec - Christmas Party at Aunt's house

Sunday 25th Dec - Morning service at church! The mood was GREAT. Afternoon, went grandfather's house, all of us went off to Suntec City to shop! Oh somehow haha didn't buy anything though except some things from Carrefour

Monday 26th - Went to Bugis with family(cousins aunts etc), then to MBS! The gym was fantastic, you can watch tv/listen2music/play games on the screen. Besides that, the view from the top, 55th floor was awesome

Tuesday 27th - TODAY! Band, then to eat and had a "chatting session"

Wednesday 28th - Gna restring my badminton racket 8D Badminton in the afternoon. Going off to Aunt's house at the evening, staying over there!

Thursday 29th - Universals Studios Singapore & Hard Rock Hotel!

Friday 30th - Hard Rock Hotel

Saturday 31st - COUNTDOWN at Marina Bay

YAY look at these!

My dear dear dear good friend Sean bought me these(& a necklace) from Israel :) I just tried both products and it works wonders! My hands are so smooth now...

^ My aunt gave me this as she has some extras.

There's so many things that happened this year. So many of us going through pain or happiness, and You are just so great being able to watch every single things we do and taking care of us. Thank You for giving me a new lease of life. If it weren't for You, I won't be able to notice many little things in life. It's amazing how You can watch over all of us. Thank You for continuously forgiving me, for Your unconditional and everlasting love. I'm grateful. Pray that you'll continue to bless us. I pray that I can love you as much as You love me! Thank You for giving me such lovely friends :)

Parfum

2011-12-16T16:57:00.005+08:00

I've decided to change this perfume I'm using...

Estée Lauder's Beautiful in the Summer Fun series
to..

One reason is because Estée Lauder's Beautiful was the limited edition, I guess? I couldn't find it anywhere anymore(as said it was limited edition). So I decided to change to Salvatore Ferragamo's Incanto Charms. It took me quite long to decide which perfume to get. Originally wanted to get Burberry perfume(forgotten what it's called) but after a long time deciding, I got Incanto Charms. However, it's Eau De Toilette but oh well I like the smell

BB

2011-12-11T22:29:00.005+08:00

So.......... FINALLY, LIKE FINALLY I CHANGED MY PHONE TO A BLACKBERRY!(Don't have to use that spare phone which has a cracked screen) And it is... the Blackberry Bold 9790!!!

Initially wanted to get 9780 or 9900 but, I don't rly like 9900 because it's too big for me. They don't have 9780 so yeapppp settled with 9790 which is the latest model? Mmmm, however.. I think 9790 cannot be disassembled, how sad. I really wanna change the housing. Anyway, it's also a Blackberry BOLD so no regrets 8D Just hope that they'll(phone accessories shop) will start selling the screen guards and covers, cause they currently don't have it! So I will have to leave the ugly plastic thing which was provided to protect the screen on my phone. The Bold 9790 is a touch screen with qwerty keyboard phone! Love it but I don't rly like the design lol hehehe kk bye!

Birthday

2011-11-21T19:49:00.002+08:00

12am, birthday surprise, thanks guys :)

It was rly rly enjoyable :) So firstly Ivan told me Jerold couldn't stay because his dad doesn't allow, I was so dumb to believe! And then awhile later, Aaron told me my uncle was outside the room, so I went to check it out. But it was Jerold! Woah totally shocked man. Haha stayed at Marina Bay Sands, some of us slept arnd 2-3am cause we were soooo tired and sleepy. Some suddenly all wake up at 5-6am? Then all the jokes went around, Steven Lim's song and everything hahaha. Lazy to elaborate further heeeeeeee kthxbye! Love you guys

Sheng Shiong Show

2011-11-13T15:30:00.004+08:00

HEYYYYY as stated on the title.. Yes I went for the Sheng Shiong Show at MediaCorp to support my mum and my uncle!

Tada~

Those were the small little kids preparing

This guy, called Rong Ming, is it? He's kinda funny and he totally made my day of anger into something memorable lol

Host preparing

Argh hate it when someone is beside me looking when I'm blogging. Especially when it's my dad...., so awkward. Mmmm I'm into art recently, art as in, doing craft works and all. Yup, so if anybody know a place that sells the cheapest crafts items (eg craft papers, thickers, rubber stamp) online, stores or whatever, formspring me! Thank you :)

Camy wamy

2011-11-06T21:48:00.002+08:00

It has been so long since I've posted! MMMM End of Year Examinations are over, grades weren't THAT bad.. But still not satisfied! YUP. Anyway I've changed this camera :

SONY A290 to...

this camera : Canon Ixus 230 HS for some reasons.

I'm really glad I got Ixus 230, because it's LIGHT, it's so convenient because you can just drop it in your bag and bring it everywhere you go! Besides that, they have a variety of colors. They come in Purple, Blue, Green, Pink, Silver and Black. I wanted to get the Green one but it was sold out!!! But ok la, purple not bad, look really elegant. I'm really satisfied with this camera, it gives out good quality photos. Love the effect! Especially the ~mini toy camera~, don't have to edit edit here and there to make it nice hahhaa. RIGHT CIAOOOZ

Continuation of the 100 random facts

2011-09-19T22:31:00.004+08:00

87. I love playing the guitar but I suck at it

88. I don't know how to cherish people

89. I keep who I like to myself

90. I am getting fatter

91. My room is dirty

92. I wanna exercise

93. When I'm alone I will think of the past :')

94. Neh I don't usually tell people why I'm sad

95. ^ because (sometimes the person asking me might be the reason why, just that I will deny lol) or because I don't see how it'll help by telling

96. I am having a slight flu nowz

97. I dislike it when.... my closest friends has girlfriends. Because they don't have freaking time for you. Ya girlfriends are priority what hor!?!?!?!?!!

98. I have dark circles which cannot be cured

99. I DON'T LIKE PEOPLE WHO "Lol" me, or "Kk" me or "K" me, so annoying >:@ But aiya no choice :)

100. I like to receive beautiful necklaces as gifts :)

101. I wanna sleep now night

Randomz

2011-08-21T17:56:00.002+08:00

Perlini's Silver

These are the nail polishes I bought the other day :

And a gift from Adele :)

Smoochiezz

2011-08-07T19:46:00.003+08:00

Went to Smoochiezz Showroom at 41 toh guan road east ADL building 08-03 Sinapore 608605, They have a wide range of OPI @ $9, China Glaze @ $7 and Essie @ $9 nail polish, NYX eye pencil, lip pencil, MAC eyeshadows($15) and more, I really love it. I couldn't decide which nail polish to buy cuz' there were SOOOOO MANY. In the end, just settled with China Glaze Celtic Sun (Neon) & Techno, Essie Borrowed n' Blue & Absolutely Shore, NYX eye pencil($4.50), NYX Felt Tip Liner($9), NYX Concealer in a Jar($8) and a dotting and marbling tool($8). Besides that, the person there who assisted was friendly despite many questions asked by my aunt LOL haha!These are some other nail polishes I would love to get.....

TADAAAA, China Glaze's Techno I bought :) but it's uhm transparent with ze particles, CHIO RIGHT, so blingz

WISHLIST

2011-08-05T21:27:00.009+08:00

This is my wishlist~

IPOD TOUCH 4th GENNIXON The Ceramic ShutterorNIXON The Dial

Blackberry 9790 pouch

Need more clothes

Need running shoes

:'(

2011-07-06T18:29:00.000+08:00

I am sad.

PLAYMAX 2011

2011-07-03T14:54:00.004+08:00

Yes yes it's PLAYMAX! It's gonna be fun, you can play Angry birds,

Paper Toss,

Doodle Find

and Pacman LIVE!!

Something like this!

YESYESYES, there will be CHATmax,

WATERmax,

DJmax,

EXTREMEmax,

WIRELESSmax,

STAGEmax,

and what's more?? SHOPmax!!

Like a flea! Why wait?!! Sign up now @ http://www.youthnet.org.sg/playmax2/signup.html :)

Date : 9th & 10th September

At : St. Andrew Cathedral!

3 fleas at 1 go

2011-06-21T19:17:00.003+08:00

Went for 3 fleas with Jocelin last saturday! Bought quite a lot of stuffs and only spent about $60, satisfied ^^ I realize both of us didn't complete the SwapNShop Flea, hahha we only walked around the Garden Bridge.. Oh well! :):)

AND.. Please support my mom's very good friend!! She's getting a booth and sell things at Singapore Flyer Sky Deck on the 25th! GOGOGO :)

3A2 Class Outing

2011-06-16T20:32:00.002+08:00

Class outing at Marina Barrage, sadly only 13 turned up, which is 1/4 of the class however it was fun! Expected more though~
Ivan trying to fly the 2.90 kite we got from the provision shop cause we couldn't find any better kites!
Pizzzaaaaaaa~

Going for water war LOLWe all forgotten the camera was on timer!
And then tada~~

100 Random Facts About Me

2011-06-09T23:19:00.011+08:00

1. I am NOT anti-social, it's just that I don't know how to start a conversation if there's only both of us :) Plz understand me!

2. I love how my table looks like now

3. I love soft Nougats, yummy

4. I DON'T hate nor dislike anyone, only things that are materialistic

5. I may be lonely physically sometimes, but mentally I'm never alone :)

6. I am actually quite a shy person

7. I would never want to have s3x

8. I freaking love Blackberry that I can feel sad when someone drops their blackberry when it's not even mine

9. I also can stare at someone's blackberry for a long period... CAUSE I DON'T OWN ONE :(

10. I love to drink water

11. I don't spend all the money I saved in my piggy bank becuz' I don't like it to be empty, it makes me feel like I'm broke

12. I love designing, art, etc but I didn't take Art as my subject lol idk why

13. I don't hold grudges

14. I don't keep scoldings to heart because scoldings actually helped me to be better

15. I get pissed easily and I can chill in like 5 min

16. I got bored of staying in Marina Bay Sands Hotel, sick and tired of that place -.-

17. I don't like food that are too sweet

18. I love the color, green

19. My self-esteem will hit the bottom line whenever I see any pretty girl out on the streets

20. I don't feel confident with my looks and dressings when I go out

21. I'm a worst-case-scenario person

22. Before I sleep, I always think of things which wouldn't happen

23. I don't get money when I go out ever since February/March 2010, but I still receive allowance for school

24. I never fail going out of point while writing a composition and that sucks a lot.

25. My Mother tongue language was good until I was Sec 2, because the teacher couldn't handle the class well, so uhm, either sleep, skip classes or chat with friends

26. I cut myself before, but from Secondary 1 onwards, no I don't. I now find it absolutely stupid to cut myself that time because I was influenced by my friend and cut it for fun -.-

27. I dislike being messy when I'm out but when I'm at home, I'm always messy

28. I can be unglamorous with my closest friends not best friend (I don't have one lol)

29. My closest friends are all guyz, poor me, no one to shop or understand girl stuffs with. O well but I'm really glad to have ze 6 guyz

30. I wanna be a flautist when I grow up, but I don't know if it'll lead me to a good future

31.When I was young, I wanted to be a teacher or a lawyer

32. I will never want to get married (for now)

33. I love to smell good, who doesn't right?

34. I'm an outfit repeater

35. I can't bear to spend my money on clothes even though I want them a lot

36. I'm trying to concentrate on what I need than what I want

37. I don't like to spend money on food, only once in a while

38. I love my flute, ok not mine but well I treat it like my baby

39. I would love to have close girl friends, not those who are not by your side always but those who are always free for you

40. I don't really like it if people "oi" me without any reason through text msgs or virtual chats

41. One of my eye has no double eyelid therefore I use the double eyelid glue

42. I keep a diary but I'm lazy to keep it updated

43. I like hugs from the back

44. I have big thighs and it irks me a lot :(

45. I want to tone my arms cause it's so flabby lol random

46. I used to love macaroons but I got sick of it

47. I often feel left out

48. I am very very very very sensitive last time, but now I'm not rly that sensitive anymore

49. I snack a lot

50. I get irritated easily hehe but that depends on what

51. I dislike guys when they text msg multiple people and when you ask them(but I don't dislike them, get it?), they'll deny the fact. And to that particular person, I'm sorry but I really have to say, suck on this _|_ I don't usually use vulgar languages or signs but oh well

52. I love to eat minced-meat porridge with braised nuts/plain porridge with chicken floss and the canned meat

53. I miss those times when we were just Secondary 1, in band

54. One of my senior was my role model, good in studies, good in flute, good in art, goodlooking, she's just good at everything :)

55. My dad just came in to check on me o_o

56. I love to window shop online~

57. I admire good body shapes

58. I got extorted when I was Secondary 1. My PSP, $20, $1, $1..........

59. I cannot really get along with my P3 and P5 cousins, I think they're just so pampered

60. I love to play solos on my flute :)

61. I haven't done any of my homeworks yet

62. I always check the price tag before I purchase any clothes lol I know, aunty

63. I go on cheap thrifts

64. Having God to love me is the greatest gift I ever had in my life

65. I feel like eating oreo, the one with a filled cream star in the middle

66. I think A LOT

67. I'm going to find something to snack on now

68. I think Justin Bieber : Never say never movie is inspiring

69. I watched 6 movies in total for the whole of ystd

70. I won't work in the morning at Macdonalds anymore D:<

71. I think I'm short and fat. Right I am.

72. I have 2 semi-dracula teeth :(

73. I like to chew on stuffs

74. Therefore I like soft and chewy stuffs

75. Since 2008 till now, my nuffnang $ is still 10+

76. I almost cried today during work LOLWTF (11-06-2011)

77. I drink very slowly, esp soft drinks idk why

78. I always tell myself to study but I'll be lured by the computer

79. My table will get messy less than 2 weeks if I packed it

80. I prefer people telling me smth straight rather than beating around the bush

81. I would love to shop now

82. I'm watching City Hunter because it has Lee Min Ho in it lol although I'm not a fan of him

83. I will get affected if I am very engrossed in a drama lololololol sucks right

84. I can watch a movie in my favourite list for many times

85. I LOVE MY CLOSEST CLOSEST OF THE CLOSEST FRIENDS :)

86. I think I can't finish 100 facts

Looking for

2011-06-07T20:36:00.004+08:00

I'm looking for :

Charles & Keith Size 36! THKQ :)

Happy 21st B'day Erlina!

2011-05-29T17:20:00.003+08:00

Happy 21st B'day Erlina! :)

Yup I wore the dress I bought the other day.

I'm trying

2011-05-23T16:53:00.000+08:00

I think it's too late already

Vintage

2011-05-18T15:46:00.004+08:00

Bought this dress for only $15(exclusive of postage)!! I think it's worth the buy, hehe.

@ http://ohmaddox.livejournal.com

I blogged it for fun, fyi!

Boring public holiday

2011-05-02T15:59:00.004+08:00

Went to town with Jescinda on Saturday but no pictures hehe. Made a New Look membership card~ Spent over a hundred -_- Uhm yea I got bored today so tada~

BAIZ gotta get the mood and study

XY's 17th

2011-04-28T19:42:00.006+08:00

Celebrated Xinyan's birthday on the 27th! WHICH WAS 1 DAY BEFORE MID-YEAR EXAMS START, hahah had fun~~ Plan went nicely until XY cabbed here so we had to chiong, like literally CHIONG everything. The plan went nicely though!

Long hair

2011-04-24T13:30:00.002+08:00

For that person who asked me on formspring... :

I only can find these! Here you go~

And my longest hair in history...

HAHAH I know, still short. It looks short in front, but it's longer behind. Laugh la laugh la. That's all I have!

The Space Fight V

2011-04-23T23:57:00.000+08:00

YES I'm back to blog! I know right, it was a difficult decision to make but well... I was invited to City Harvest for Good Friday service ystd, it was great. I didn't bring my camera! HEHEH. Impromptu plan today, went to town with Jescinda cuz' there was a flea. Headed to *Scape and we were disappointed cause the flea was super small. We were planning to go for HOOKEDONFLEA on the 30th but since she told me there was a flea today, yeap we pushed forward but were really disappointed la. Strolled around town, seeing if there is anything to buy. We both thought that today isn't a good day to shop. However, I bought some stuffs, I'm satisfied!

Cannot stand my face, sibei cui

2011-03-19T19:30:00.001+08:00

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